These last five years have been nothing short of easy. You have worked so hard and pushed yourself to limits that you could have never imagined so let’s take a moment to reflect.
September 2014 was the first day of freshman year. You thought you wanted to be a nurse but quickly realized that was not what you wanted to do but knowing you wanted to be in the medical field, you switched over to biological studies against your fathers wishes but you knew he would come around. Finished out freshman year strong but knew you had to do a little more in order to become a competitive applicant for whichever part of the medical field you decided to get into post-graduation. January 2016 you began mentoring young bright high school sophomores and juniors to prep them for their SAT + more and having it becoming one of the most fulfilling jobs you’ve ever had. In the same month you decided to begin volunteering at White Memorial Medical Center (the same hospital your mother worked at before for 10 years) what you thought was just going to be taking vital signs and changing patients became way more than that. You became some patients best friends in the hospital and sometimes the only person that would actually have a genuine conversation with them that day. Fast forward to May of 2016 when you do your first real photoshoot which happens to catch the eyes of many including international celebrity makeup artist, Mali. She books you for your first campaign (which was also your first paid job as a model) in December of 2016 with Anastasia Beverly Hills. This brought you a boost of confidence that you really needed so you decided to seek out an agent but you were quickly humbled when no one wanted to sign you. This didn’t mean give up, this meant try harder and be better. 2016 was a big year for you, because if you rewind to June of 2016, you’ll remember that you were accepted and started the Summer Medical and Dental Program at UCLA, it was here that you realized that you wanted to become a Physician Assistant as a career once you graduated! When 2017 came around you began shadowing both a Physician Assistant as well as an MD to really be sure that becoming a PA is what you wanted to do. All the while still volunteering at White memorial once a week, working on campus part-time, being a full time student and modeling on the side!! After over 200 volunteer hours, you said goodbye to volunteering at the hospital and hoped to take a few summer school courses. After being unable to take the summer class you wanted you made the decision to shift your focus to modeling for the summer and aren’t you so glad you did?!! Thanks to Chrissy, you were able to take a trip to New York and shoot with the photographers you’ve been admiring for over a year. Your portfolio received the biggest face lift after this trip, from then on you were pretty much unstoppable but still unsigned. You felt you needed to be signed to be a “successful model” which you soon realized is not true but you put your self back out there and went to more open calls in December of 2017 and then finally you got your YES from BMG Models! The moment you had been waiting for and praying for finally came… you were now a signed model. From then on you booked your first commercial and then another one, and then another one. All while being a full time biology student and passing all your classes (with the exception of two that you had to retake). Fast forward through 2018 and you realize modeling and acting isn’t just a side thing anymore… it’s your occupation & although you don’t want to say it aloud… it’s your true passion… it’s what you really want to do but you don’t want to admit it to anyone… not even yourself because you don’t want to feel as though you’re getting this degree for nothing. So you begin to say “I’m just going to take a year off and focus of modeling and acting after graduation to see where that gets me”… knowing damn well you it’s going to be more than a year that you’ll be doing it… it’s probably going to be your career. But there’s someone that knows you so well that you didn’t even have to tell them you were feeling this way…Ben! Sometimes he knows you better than you know yourself and when he asked you “do you really want to be a PA after graduation?” The tears began to flow because you knew, you knew you really don’t want to and he’s known it for a while too. The spark you get when you’re talking about modeling and acting isn’t the same spark you get when you talk about the medical field anymore. Although you still love medicine and know you won’t cross it off of your possible career list forever (because never say never) you simply don’t see medicine in your future within the next few years but you still have your degree and you know that PA school will always be there and even in the midst of letting go of medicine you have professors offering to write you letters of recommendations and to all of that I am so proud of you. I’m proud of you for balancing two extremely different lives at the same time and still making time to maintain healthy relationships. Although this chapter is closing and you are soon to be a college graduate, there are endless opportunities out there waiting for you… I simply can’t wait to enjoy the ride